Faith outnumbers doubt

Doubt runs for the hills
Faith stands strong still.
All is possible now
All is possible later


Goodness all will be possible for me hehe

No roads or anything in my way for Jesus is the Ruler of me.

Wooooooo what a life,what a life.

What a wonderful life.


xoxo jbhc

p.s.i am a legend in his own very time and a king under royal lineage that would be Jesus linaege.

Anything is in reach

It is like humm believing a song can be wrote,write it you shall



believe you will be in a hit film done


All is in reach,anything possible will be


Any negative can be avoided


Any walls can be knocked down


Any mountains can be moved and washed to the sea


Any relationship can manifest into more


Any conflicts can be erased


And anything can be done if you believe it can in Jesus mighty name for all is in reach and nothing is impossible

Back again:5 days

It has been 5 days since i have been online,yet i had to stay off the computer because i promised brie larson(my life) i would and i did as i said.i came back again and i have been researching,working on brand new songs and poems and even reading the Bible and what i learned is:Jesus views us as His friends not His enemies or servants at all when we get to know Him,we are far more than that a perfect creation which is able to do it all:

run
jump
heal
pray
preach
teach
run faster
run slower
sing fast
sing slow
you name it God has already granted in us the ability to do anything we must,need and could ever want and will have to do and will do and all will go well for God has control of reality not us even He has the keys to Heaven and even hell so why should we worry we shouldn't it's a lack of faith and we all should be looking at ourselves in shock for God can do all things.

i am not into talking about anything evil yet when evil messes with reality then i have something to say for it is an abomination unto God and evil causes chaos in everryday life for it wrecks havoc or only may be tryin to that is for it has no power it just tempts us that is it's only power because the only way to power is when it comes from the Holy Ghost or maybe we should call it Holy Spirit it is complicated for i am try in so hard to not affend Him who is God and above the world so let us come to realize God has the power,we never did,we are just Hus children


perfect we ar not,yet made we were by Lord God Almighty and He tried to tell us not to eat poisonous stuff in the beginning yet person 1 and 2 failed to obey and they were adam and eve and if they had listened they would have been perfect all through theiur entire lfie,so if we avoid that we may keep perfection once w accept Jesus as our personal Lord and Saviour and He is God's only begotten son(meaning from God in a woman's wound,made in a woman's woumb from God who is our Heavenly Father"

failure is a mistake and can be avoided and sin is a transgression of God's command's and requests meaning we fail to do what He who is God asks:yesterday,today and tomorrow,past,present and future and any time before,now and after now and even in between God tells us al lwhat to do,yet us as human's rebel which we should never do.

words from God is not just an opinion it's the truth,it's the answer,it's a command,it's the only way to go,it ain't man's word that makes us know it's God's now,forever and it always has been God who makes thing's possioble not us if it had been it would have been wrote in the Bible.another thing i remember is that there is blasphemous spirits in this world that comes cause to do God wrong.it happens way too often and it must be stopped they are called demons and they mess with our everyday being and try to mess us up with words that God called "abominable"
and evil may come and try to deny it yet it is a fact when we try to be so good,thing's stone us so they the evil's must get stoned,yet i gtg and before evil tries to mess up me again.

Lord please shield this work and make it right so i can go off here in Jesus mighty name.Amen.

The Lord has the power not you people,not even i who is just a mortal spirit and someday and immortal spirit

grace killer's out there you should be ashamed of yourself.God knows what you do and tempt the innocent to do other's wrong,how dare you.Be ashamed evil doers ashamed be you and go and repent right now people because of your great sins.

Who am i?

I am not the man i was with being afraid to speak my mind and all
I am not afraid to tell brie larson how i feel
I am training to be aa martial artist
I am gonna workout harded
I am gonna lift heavier
I am gonna study more
I am gonna fight death till death's dead
I am gonna succeed for the Lord my God now and forever more
I am gonna preach when i feel like it
I am gonna sing when i feel like it
I am gonna talk to brie larson when she can
I am gonna not be friend's with everyone nor care about everyone forgive and forget
I am gonna remember brie larson

I'd do anything for you(for brie larson)

(This song took alot of guts to write because it came deep down from my soul and nothing i write,say,do or think is ever mean or false i write all truth and i hope to God that you're ok brie larson and just like the song "Born to run" when it says in a line in a verse "even with the sadness i'll love you with all the madness in my soul"

"when i think of love and who i really care about there is only one person i swear to God i care about and could think of i care about more than every person alive and it's you "brie" i swear there ain't a thing wouldn't do for you just like bon jovi says in the song "I'll be there for you" when it says "i'd live and i'd die for you and words can't say what love can do and i'll be there for you"

this is so deep i never loved someone like this it's seems so unreal and it ain't unreal it's the truth and if i had to i'd let God take all of me and send me to you and help you and never let you get done wrong ever again.I mean that i really do and i hide my emotions i am like a lion it never shows it's feelings but hides it unless it can't hide it anymore.

yet here is the song and if you wanna know how to read sheet music i know how fully

Amen that you're alive brie and i am so glad you're alive

when these lands starting treating us good

you know that feeling oh so deep inside and i'm so glad you're alive and i love you

There has been times when i didn't want to live
and it's because to see you done wrong is so sad
and i hate that people think wrong of you
and if i had to die i would so you'd be free
from the misery

baby if i could
i'd take the confusion away
and shed some light
and all you need to know
and will hear anyway

and if i could just tell you the truth
that there ain't nothing in this world
at all
that i wouldn't do
for you

chorus

i'd drive for miles
and miles without sleep
starve to death
and even weep
because i miss you
and even when i'm down
when i see you smile
my unhappiness goes away
but promise me one thing
you'll be ok

i've tried oh i've tried
to stop the tears
but now as i sit here
i worry so dear
about you
and what other's think and do
and what i would do if i could
i'd take all the pain from you

Lyrics of "I'd do anything for you"

"i hope you find this true because it's all true and i would live and die for you words can't say what love can do because i'll truly be there for you"

Bored yet still evolving

I haven't been able to figure out what to do:

I read the Bible daily and my favorite book is Psalms,but Genesis and Joshua are both awesome books,i am not vegetarian i tried to be but it was so hard yet i am gonna go back to vegetarianism someday soon lest God doesn't allow then i won't be,

weightlif

play video games

research the intersites

check out tv shows

write some songs

and so forth

today is quite boring and i feel sad that brie larson has got the flu

it's a damn shame she has to go through this i would rather die then her suffer this

if she ever wants to know how much i care it's not skin it's spiritual deep

i care about her all around from:

getting into heaven
pleasing God so she can get there
be happy
enjoy life
inside and out
write songs about her
worry about her till i through up without even being sick
cry myself to sleep that i never met her and worry if she's ok or not
fight over my friend's being mean to her and hate them for it
starve myself and worry about her and not sleep that much at all
to be honest this is the first day in a long time that i have slept good at all
and she posted a blog
Hallelujah to that fact and that i got to know how she is doing and that she is
and even if she is sick i know she will get well because God is with her

i gtg
too much worrying
too much thinking
and i need off this computer not because of brie
because of me for i am worrysome man
i sometimes fret on stuff when i should never
because all does turn out ok God is in control
of my life and brie's

i gtg brie get well soon and God help me

Poems to be wrote and people to be helped

If you need some help just ask me for some help and i'll help you

Many doubt i will but you'd be suprised and if i had alot of money

I'd feed everybody but i ain't got that kinda money

I'd also preach to those imprisoned in prison like Johnny Cash did he has an effect on me

a huge effect for his God-fearing and lovin nature.he was more good than bad

he was just a true Godly man

trust in me for i trust in God and if you believe me you won't be disappointed

i love God,brie and my mom more than this world but i will help those out in need

It is so sad how people uses temptation to run people's lives instead of using tests to improve their lives

The Top 10 thing's i so hate alot:

1.People telling me to give up
2.Women telling me to give up just for the sake of havin me to their self(they're low-lifes)
3.People using me for the sake of using me
4.Fake friend's
5.Friend's who let me down and come back later to try to ruin other relationship's
6.Liars,annoying folks,deceivers,evil,hate,lust,sexual people and folks who just force themselves on other;s
7.Guys and girls who know brie but tell me to move on they stick their opinions sideways and stick them straight up their candy asses
8.People who are faithless or don't believe in God at all
9.Christians who say that i am not tryin or i have to change or i have to let go,they should look at themselves and judge themselves first before they judge another i hated my past for the christians i spent time with didn't give a damn about me they just held it inside and never told me,i am not judas i do care but people are cold as steel at times,that is what's so wrong with mankind
10.People praying and wishing against my wishes,my love for brie larson,my family,my friend's and that people want me to not be with brie larson and they are gonna grow up or shut up because i will never let her go and that's the bottom line cause james shelton says so.

May the truth be known

I am not a slave to the flesh no more nor to any human but only connected to brie larson and God is gonna help to keep us connected forever and no force of creation will seperate us with God on my side.

Never Obssessed,Only Truthful

I have evolved,i have changed,but i still love brie larson.I don't obssess for i don't collect pictures of anybody and try to be into them all day i just love brie larson it comes naturally.There is alot of folks who doubt me and my love.Well i took everything that image out of my bedroom but i left the albums of brie so basically no images are in there but it ain't because i don't like brie it's because i love her for it's for our own good.I threw out poster's of other women out the door last year and tore them all apart and i have to be truthful i never have been obssessed with anybody since britney spears "oops i did it again" that is the only time i was obssessed and since then i've changed,i've grown and i realize what really does matter to me and that is my dreams,pleasing God in every single thing i do big or small and of course the one and only brie larson

something happened today i hurt my foot,i ain't sayin which for can i trust you i know i can trust brie but how can i trust ya'll.......don't think of me like a sexist i don't even like anybody sexually lest brie larson ever wanted me to but i kinda doubt it,i mean i want to do her right the way God would do women i mean treat them.Don't blaspheme it's totally wrong.It's like tryin to say God did something that He certainly didn't do which i will not think about ever for i am God's servant and Amen to that all the churches would say and will say if they would ever hear me say it.




the death of the sock show this is very sad,but have no fear i'll bring it back later for enhanced reasons i'll improve it and i'll use voice changer or something i have no clue



hehe but here's the truth listen to me and brie larson if you need anybody's thought's it's mine.i am pure in thought,i avoid sexuality by all means for that is sinful and to be honest Godliness is what i try to remain always havin within me and righteous and i can do so much from sing to songwrite to weightlift to so many more and i am gonna skateboard and learn how to build do some construction work and get tough and get bigger than i currently am and i can do weightlifting real fast when lifting and i am here for you brie and i am tough as they come.

but even though all of that i love eternally and without end more than everybody else not to do with your hobbies and professions or images just you,every other women can quit fantisizing about me for they are wasting their time and i am not afraid to say this but i only love you and they mean nothing to me but i have to say i love everyone for the Bible says so so i am gonna try to be more Godly


Well to me it may take a month,months,a years or even years to get with brie but however long it take to get there nothing will side track me from it not even women even with their lust and men with their jelious and hatred and women's immaturity and men's either i am a grown man and tough like bob dylan meets hulk hogan

I Hate Myself and The Feeling's To Be Afraid or to give up

To me who do i hate the most it's me because i love this girl and i let these damn stupid thought's control me and people say i am a prisoner of the flesh but i killed my love for the flesh but i love brie and i don't care who loves or hates me and as of right now.

R.I.P. to the james shelton which was into women and influenced by men,but i now killed that me and i definitely am not gay people can't twist my stories and say because i don't love johanna or those who love me doesn't mean i am gay i only love brie and if she loves me then i love her anyway because well i do i am not gonna lvoe another woman as long as i live

and if another person hates me i'll forgive them but i won't care for them like i do for brie larson and if anybody around me or who knows me can just be mad,but i am not kidding i love brie and if i have to cut i'll off of me whatever get's in the way of being with her.

Guess What?The Sock Show series is here so check the videos out

Click each video to view them and please enjoy for it too much quite a while to get this stuff recorded,edited and on here:

Each video is short like 30 some seconds up to a minute yet later they will be way longer(enjoy and comment please and thank you)

Sock Show(First Episode)



Sock Show(Second Episode)



Sock Show(Third Episode)

I Miss Brie yet blogging all the time is boring not knocking anybody that does

i do blog alot and stuff i gotta admit i hate myself and my brain for it drives me insane.i will be so glad when 4th of July weekend is dead and over 4 real this week is terrible.It's so bad i feel like i am dying but i gotta get dressed and get something to eat and do my songwriting and think positive and i know i'll get to see brie someday even if other's want me not to.i am so tired of my brain.

i want to get a new brain and put my past in the ground and forget about it and the past friendships and just be me because as of right now i worry and i am so glad that brie is single because that is the only girl for me the rest can find somebody else meaning any other girl and i am not into dating lest brie wants to date then i'll date her i won't date another girl and i am thankful for all good that happen's

peace out hugs for brie :) peace out and brie needs to get her some rest.

i am so concerned about her she seems so tired.i am gonna go but have no fear brie because in 2 years i will be able to transfer from Virginia to California and i won't be back in Virginia for a few years or decades so i won't be back home with my parent's.i am a soon-to-be-actor and i hope brie knows that i love her.

Dreams

Last night i had a dream about brie larson.She means so much to me and i love that girl more than life,my parent's,my friend's and everything else and more than anybody else loves her.my dad is evil he wants to be evil and mess with me and put stuff in my head to blindside me like the little evil he is.i got to admit my father i really don't like so that is why i am changing my full name and losing shelton because i am nothing about country life or the country scene.i ain't country nor do i like country and people may want me to be,but i have changed and nothing in this world do i care about but brie larson,my dreams,goals and hopes,doing my stuff daily and not neglecting it and getting stronger and overcoming my father.


well as of today i am gonna overcome my dreams,fears,obstacles and worries as i can explain.to me i real do care about brie and let go of the past.


to me my dad is so obsolete to what i want to do and he doesn't even realize anything about me.i don't even like Virginia.i just live in it until i can move.


I love brie larson and even if my dreams seem as if i am not quite near her that will not stop me from going to see her someday and be better friend's.


I will always love her even after i leave this world behind that is a promise


I love NYC and California but no place,thing or any material possession matter's to me but brie larson nor does friend's matter to me nor any other person matter's to me as much as her and until we get to see each other i will not hang with other man or woman lest they only want to be friend's and if they try flirting with me i won't flirt back i'll just walk on and will smith is my role model and a few other's are as well but i don't do dating girl's nor women for i only love brie larson and if anybody else doesn't like that then they ain't my friend nor do i know them or have i ever knew them they just are folks not friend's,but brie larson is my true friend i love her.


i like cartoons,i like comedy,i even am funny i laugh alot just like brie but i am not mean i am working on being nicer,but i just don't wanna do anything today even if other's want to and none of my friend's get me especially johanna she think's that i am crazy but whatever she can think whatever about me brie larson is the girl i love not johanna nor any other woman i love but brie larson



they can love me or they can hate me,but i only care about,love and miss brie larson and God yet my dreams matter too but not as much as God and brie that is the truth


Just ask my mom and she'd say i love brie larson without walls meaning i never hide my feeling's from her not even if i could or wanted to and as of today i am gonna weightlift and work on a brand new set of songs and record,record and write more songs until i feel accomplished enough and the sound fits the album and try to get a back-up band and if anybody knows a back-up band that is looking please get back 2 me


i don't listen disney as much as i like nickelodeon,but no channel nor any other channel,network or show matter's to me as much as her,they can come and they can go,but i will forever love brie and that means beyond life and into the next and even centuries after that and even after i am in heaven 1,000,000 and the truth is forever i can't say what forever is exactly because that is a very long time.



i love all the months of the year,but in astrology i only like air,earth sign(virgo) and fire sign(leo)

I Need You Brie More Than You'd Ever Realize

I am missing her and i am not letting anybody else on my mind but brie no more women or men are getting inside my head but brie i don't need anybody else but brie and i don't care if other women may be hot or sexy it doesn't matter to me anymore.i just wish she'd give me a chance i'd take my own life if i was guaranteed i'd have brie in it.I mean i don't want be destroyed for it so i can't do that but i'll do miserable until the day comes me and brie are as one.Anybody else can go on.The world is killing me slowly not by love for love don't kill or harm another,it is by those words and actions that they want rid of me and try to wash my name completely out and they all want me gone out of her life,but as they figured by now nothing will change me not even if anybody hit on me i'd tell them to stop or else i am a strong man and i can be dangerous but i'd never hurt brie for real never not even if i was threatened to i'd rather get hurt then lose brie i can't take it anymore it is like i am dying when i think of anybody else.i gtg finish weightlifting my God help my soul and direct me to think correctly and be with brie forever and ever and may every women go and find somebody else please in Jesus name.

BRIE IS IT FOR ME(THE ONLY GIRL THAT I'LL EVER NEED)

No more thinking of anyone but brie i am done with women and men too i love brie larson and if God were to wash mankind away for it's sins i am gonna praise Him for He does all that is right and good not just in His sight i consider it good also.I love brie so much i wish she knew that and believed i'd deny all of the women of the world just to have her for all of eternity.I would die for her and if dying is what it takes to get in her life forever then God can take me and send me into Heaven and leave me there and i'll wait patiently i wish i could go and be with her but that boy and other's get in the way.Please pray for me and brie's friendship and that no temptation will ever mess with me and her ever again not even women even though i am still a virgin,still tempted to give in,but never gonna until me and brie are married and i am so done with the likes of other's don't they get i am done with them all even all of the women i mean every women i don't are about women or anything not even men i only care about brie being safe,not messing up like the fools miley,ashley tisdale and the other hors of the world.i care about brie.brie is good she never did that and to be honest i don't care about women nor do i like men i only love brie and if women want me they can all forget about it and so can men i am straight and brie's forever and ever.That means no johanna,candice,molly o'connell,sasha or any other girl no body else no wendy no body else will do but brie.i don't care about the size of the body nor about what they look like underneath i only care about brie's health and safety i never loved another like her and i never will ever again it is it for me and God can show the rest of the world that i don't care what God has to do to get me in her and i don't care if it means millions dying i only care that brie lives and me and our families and our dreams come true and the temptations all are forgotten in Jesus name.

me vs old me

dead to the old ways but the old me haunts my memory

i buried my past but my past haunts me everyday

a match-up between me and my past self

who will win leave it up to chance?

me of course the new and improved caring me not the old me

that used to fret,be faithless and seek the flesh

i killed that version of me and i check daily to make sure

all is ok and everything is always ok.

I hate my brain the way i am affected by the rest of the world

i hate to be affected and i mean if i am affected by brie or GOD it's ok and my mom also but weirdos tryin to make me all sexual and crap i am not for i hate humanity,i love brie and the women who try to get inside my head and that includes men too i only want brie in my head the thought's of her i love that girl more than all of the human race does.

Dead to the world

Alot of people wonder who i am,call me crazy and other false names relating to me and want me away from me and here's the truth:


i will never quit loving brie whether i am loved,hated or disliked


i am like triple h and brie both combined

people can't tell me what to do i am not james no more

james was my old name and my new name and my new identity nobody will recognize but brie for she's my twin sister and even if johanna hates that she can grow up

people who don't like that i love brie can call someone who cares because me caring for hater's is a plain waste of my day and night inner peace

friend's are a diamond dozen,but evil will perish and will be soon forgotten

babylon,iran,iraq an syria best change and also the jews who don't believe in the LORD or they'll suffer GOD must be treated with respect,love and trusted forever and ever

peganism still exists in this world and until it's all forgotten GOD will not let up on the end of the world promise that is something i think and maybe GOD does

i hate tendacitis i hate my body it bring's me pain just like this world and the world want's something from me i can't give i can only give brie what she wants it's my life and i'll give it to her freely



people may or may not call me names for what i say but this is how i really feel about the world and i am dead to the world 4 life and 4 ever,but alive to GOD,brie and my family and friend's and my future on this world i am dead to the wants and needs of the many human race i have to deal with each and every day on a day to day basis.soon enough i will leave virginia,be with brie,me and her will be together and someday we'll never lose touch for i will never lose touch with her GOD i know will help and will protect my dreams,hopes and wishes forever and ever and shield them with His wings forever.

New songs i am working on currently

i have been quite busy with songwriting and weightlifting and poetry but soon enough i'll be working for an acting company and i'll leave virginia far behind me and never go back ever again until the day me and brie are as one and that day may not be too far from here and trust me when that day comes the world will proclaim it.

Dead to teenage me,alive to the adult me

All the matters to me is being with brie larson eventually whether anybody else likes it,accomplishing all my dreams,goals and hopes and pleasing GOD in all that i do and give HIM time each day and walk with JESUS CHRIST in every way i can humanly possible


"Someday,somewhere,somehow i know that i'll be with her whether the world says so or not,GOD says i can and i may be able to if i give up the world so i gave it all up and HE cleaned the world out of my mind and left her there and GOD will protect me even if you all wish me harm


Today was a total mistake,but as of now the old ways and habits are dead,gonna get a job,go back to college,start a band,trust nobody who i see or hear from lest it be GOD,brie or maybe my own mother but that is it

Get stronger on weightlifting,songwriting,singing,poetry and all of everything else that i do

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE BRIE EVEN AFTER I DIE

People think i am gonna quit hahahhaaaaaaaah yah right in their dreams
quit loving them yah but never quit loving brie
besides i hate the world it's filled with sinners and low-lifes who want to rob other's even me of what i want i may even have to resurrect the JRAY in me
that had the inverted picture to prove the old me is dead

including:

sexuality
mistake maker
image lover
and the love for all other women is dead

the new is alive yah and is not for women or men just brie,johanna,GOD,my friend's and parent's that is it.

The rest of the world GOD can do whatever those sinful low-lifes who create abominations in GOD's eyes which is so sad and i realize this now.

So from now on i am not adding people to my myspace i may no longer use it.i am gonna pursue my music career,it's gonna be a long road to get to be with brie and accomplish my dreams but one thing i will never do is stop loving brie maybe me i will stop loving or the rest of the world but never the girl who keeps me from killing myself

joshua king - james the old me is dead

i may create a newer me for your amusement the new me won't care about the world in the wrong and worldly way which is sinful and in the way to destruction

to be honest my nickname is jray abekcumes meaning:who is seeks GOD becomes like GOD yet is filled but not exactly like

and for brie to understand me i may need to prove how much i care

my name may still be james but the man james used to be is just an illusion of who i am now.the yearbooks from high school the myspace man who was stupid to not tell brie he loved her sooner i fell for the foolish words of my dad one of the worst sinner's in my opinion it's very sad but true.

my dad ruined my life and it's not lie.

Dead to sexuality and alive to brie and GOD

i wake up no longer seeking of the flesh but of the spirit i confess
Jesus is in my heart and so is brie
and whoever dislikes that don't have to talk to me
one day in the future people will see all i want can come to me
for the LORD is the LORD of me
and all i can do is succeed
and one dya the LORD will trample on thee
like flaming fire and all will see GOD is the true KING

shocked well you'll be even further shocked

i am better than once was i am stronger,weigh more not by fat but by muscle mass and i am pretty strong gonna buy me a bass guitar and learn how to play it and i am gonna do my own music and it's gonna be great,plus i am gonna star in several movies,appear in numerous shows and plus even be a pro wrestler one day and make millions of dollars,people are gonna know i exist and are gonna love what i do.

"whenever failure steps near you all you gotta do is just pray and God will lift you from your sadness and into the promised land" a quote from James Shelton whose name is gonna be renamed something else someday.

I am so damn sick and tired,yet i am not as angry many think i am just worried and concerned

when it comes to me i take life seriously and i don't accept failure i don't even allow it.i fight what wishes failure on me from whoever in the world and i will always win and with God by side i can do anything and whatever mountain is in my way,whatever building needs moved God always comes through and the mountain known as john must be pushed out of the way so i can get with that person i want to be with.

the setbacks will become none and the successful will flourish and when i said justice must be surved i meant people will see my wrath if they anger me and if they want that they shall get it more shall happen in the world iraq will become dust,iran will become nothing but a wasteland and babylon will be destroyed and the other place i mentioned before called syria will have to be good to the Jews of the Lord will take care of their kind and so forth the middle east best obey God or God will break them and make them better.God warned me of this and asks me to do such and say such so i do i seem mean or unrighteous somehow,but i am i say what God sends my way.

So forth with Japan and China they best help the Jews and GOD'S CHOSEN PEOPLE or they may suffer from HIS WRATH.HE WARNS US DAILY OF OUR CONCEQUENCES AND HE SAYS YOU MUST OBEY ME TO GET ANYTHING.i am the man who HE requests to say such great requests and the LORD demands your attention and if you ignore HIM HE will punish you that is what HE says not me i wouldn't punish anyone lest HE requested me.

All i ask from you oh LORD GOD ALMIGHTY is to have some mercy on my life,bring me to brie larson the girl i love and help us to become one and to silence whatever wishes against that even her friend's who wish against that and may i be successful.

plus i am not mad at nobody and i am so happy and plus whenever my album gets released it's gonna blow the roof off Walmart or wherever it is sold.it's gonna the change the way music for i thrive to make music better.bottom line nobody does music like me or ever will for i am the future of music and this year people gonna hear a sample of what i am all about.

The Evolution of me:The new me is better than the man i once was

Well here i go ok here goes i am not the man i once was.i am not obsessed i never was just curious in different subjects astrology,Catholic and Christianity are still big subjects i think about quite often.



i have been quite busy and yes i workout pretty hard in the gym.basically i lift more than i weigh in the gym every time i step in the gym



i also write alot of lyrics,music,poetry and songs more often and draw and paint alot plus i am still working on my interesting album and it will shock all who hear it and will amaze all for i still believe in God,yet i am not bad i don't mock Him or use His name in any way but the way He intends me to use it



well i gtg and go workout in the gym and write another song today and when i add another song to my myspace it's gonna be better than the cover of yesterday that was good yet now i am working on way better tracks and way more weight in the gym way better art



i am way for improving me not sticking with what i got i always strive to receive more and lift more in the gym and succeed in every thing i do i don't think failure is good so i choose to study hard,lift heavy yet rest thoroughly and not strain my vocals anymore and sing right

I miss Brie Larson(A Poem To Brie Larson

Whenever and however you read this please read this poem and it will be very touching:

When i first saw your face
I knew with my own two eyes
You was it for me and that is the truth
And it ain't no surpise
That no matter
How much hate or how much sadness
Is thrown my way
I will still love you at the end of the day
I pray daily
For my souls sake
Yet when you're not with me i feel i am falling away
Brie please lift me from my sadness
And please help me to feel ok
Because nobody loves you more than i do
Not even today
Although God does but i meant this about humanity anyway
For not even John could be nice like i could do
And one you'll let me in and you'll see
I am the one who helped thee
John nor any other man
Understands
God is the one i prayed to
Yet you are the girl i love
So please understand my plee
And please come to Virginia
And rescue me
Please pray for me
I am so weak
And i need God's grace but above all thing's
I need to see your face

I always had open ears:

Are you kidding me brother's and sister's music is my life:

I love music that is on the edge and writing music the same way kinda different and edgy and nopthing you'd expect but here goes if you want edge,open ear music i write that type and yes i change all the time i adapt to get anything i want and i am gonna succeed and may God bless my road to her.

A Cry for help and a miracle from God above me

I just want her and the teraps of the enemy makes me more fearfu lto keep on believing but i'll never give up even if the enemy tries to kill me i'll still keep on going and when i get what i want i'll give thanks to the Lord for He is my Saviour and the comfort of my home and strength in me that helps me to overcome it all and when it happens i'll give my life and lay it down at His feet and my heart will be her's and she may have it eternally forever all i want is her

Traps like fake myspace imposter sites:bebo and reunited is gemics plus dating sites suck plus i don't like people online only my heroes and the girl and woman i will be with someday and we will be together.i am leaving her name unmentioned.I try so hard to dodge the critics like a ram going through the valley and i sometime's come to those who are foolish enough to think they can tame me and so forth i am not a ram but that is a metaphore i take life by the horns and i kick it's ass and i win every single time.The world is evil trap and God warns us how the world tells us to give up,but i never will.I learned one valueable lesson in this past 2 years to get anything in this world you must learn how to get it and not stop until it's done and that is what i am gonna do when it comes to the girl i love i care about her and i will never give up on being with her no matter what.People can love,hate,try to trick me those evil parasites and even wish me to give up but it says hope says to give it one more try meaning basically not stop until you get that thing you want and if you gain some enemies then so what like i care i only what brie that is it.i am willing to bust some vains in my arms doing arm curls to get strong enough to be able to withstand anything mother nature will put me through like samson did way back in the Bible.Samson is my hero he was so strong and with God's help i am gonna be as big and strong as Samson and my hair will be as long as his.To be honest no more worrying,regreting being me or listening to people using illusians to try to blind side me hey this is my world i can do what i want to do in it it is my world.God gave me this world and i must conquer it like Conan the Barbarian has done.

"All is possible in God's eyes you just must never give up no matter what you do never give it maybe lose some friend's but never give up and when i get to the mountain top with the woman i love i'll be praisimng God with all i got my heart,my soul,my spirit,my life and with tears falling from my eyes sayin thank you God i am so happy i was so worried people from every angle wished bad thing's upon me and all i ever wanted was this woman that is it and now i can finally say thanks because she is within reach and i don't have to worry anymore i'd die for this woman to be in my life eternally by my side O Lord and since i can get her and have her i will relax"

"death is nothing just a phase you endure to be with the Lord eternally yet do Him right and He will do you greatly and will raise you into the light and stay there forever and ever in His grace and heaven and may it keep you from remembering fear from the world of violance and injustice and people causing grief and sadness on me O Lord pleas help me out all i want is her pleas i am willing to do absolutely anything to get her in my life whatsoever so help me God i want her"

what about your promises what about your grace haven't i deserved such a thing and why have i been so sad pleas O Lord help the girl to be able to knoweth what she does and may she turn from her ways and come to me and i'll praise you O Lord forever eternally that is all i want i am meaning every word i would die for you please O Lord please

12-21:One man reaches adult hood and is still child

Purple velvet,i love all kinds of music.I am done with bob dylan for right now i am changing all the time i am gonna check out some new type of music to see what goes and what don't.what is popular ok and i am here for ya'll and you know i need more fans and when i get out there and when i get out there i am gonna do alot more music and yes the songs i am gonna do will blow your mind.redwhiteblue rocking the world kind style.


i gotta go in a few minutes


so little time so much to say


oh and hey if you want to reply back pleas do so or i will be a sad sad man


oh and by the way i got a hair cut and it's not that short but to get rid of the dead and ends and a new clothing line


i am gonna purchase some brand new cds and yes i am gonna be movin out of virginia


plus the i am gonna buy me some punk rock,pop,rock,jazz and so forth


plus i am gonna get me some more music


bored:leave your message at your own proposal.i am ready.


i am already taken.
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asia. and many other artists blow my mind


well until later peace out plus i hate cnn and headline news not like hate hate but hate to watch all the time like i have for the past 2 months but hey i gotta go peace out


i almost forgot one more thing if you are an aspiring artist like i am ignore the critics online and do your thing and draw people to u and get attention don't give up on your dreams even if some of the world somehow screwed up wishes you too





it's all about a dream.tryin to make it real - a verse from badlands by bruce springsteen and it is all about a dream and you can make it real and once it is you'll be thanking the good Lord for every bit of your success and if you don't you are ungrateful kid be grateful and thank the King of Kings



oh and yes if you wanna be my friend pleas leave a comment or email me at my Myspace and yes i still love brie and i am not dull i am far from it i gotta go.......even though it's my birthday i have alot to do much laters still peace out jrayanites

The Old Me Is Dead And I Still Love Her

well you all think i am the same person i once was.that i like numerous women and to be honest it doesn't shock me one tiny bit because other's still want to point the finger and think i am who i once was when i am not.i weightlift heavier,i write more poetry and songs,talk to my friends,musicians,singers,songwriters and even those who still respect me and those who grow to respect me.



when it comes to me and the old me i am better than the old me and heck of alot better.i am what the old me wasn't and that is stronger mentally,phsically and spiritually.


well i am a bit suprised at how people still hold grudges yet why should i be suprised people in the world get jelious of super famous and even those like me who ain't and why



well could it be they ain't me and they are jelious of my abilities well i don't care anymore only that that girl is gonna be in my life someday i pray,make some money,be in the music business,grow stronger in my soul and in my muscles and be tougher than i ever once was





well unlike alot of you i can't just sit on the computer and type all day or play video games and computer games all day i got a life and i got alot to do



those of you who are still livin in fear get a grip because fear only bounds you in chains and it is better to not be afraid well i gotta go and fix my hair and do my stuff go shopping and keep on going and note that the new me doesn't live for everyone only God,brie larson,my mom,my friend's and that is it and the fans i will gain eventually



when one door closes another door opens and when friend's are lost one is gained to help and i got 4 best friend's:

brie larson

johanna(awesome girl)

sara neimites

candice - even though we hardly keep in touch we are real good friend's still



well i gotta go but until later stay strong,keep on going and believing,never quit,never give up no matter who or wants wants you to



until later keep believing and being strong 4 life,4 real and alway 4 ever



peace out

oh yah here is my youtube site address

http://youtube.com/user/JustForBrieLarson plus you can add me comment me and so forth plus here's my old blogspot site i can no longer log into and this is the only one i use now so don't be caught off guard if you see new posts on the other site there not mine for i don't remember the log-in:http://ilovebrielarson4realpeople.blogspot.com/ and you can check it out and comment them plus i am gonna move some of them to the current site which will make this site rock even more and i am gonna make this site even better and i am gonna improve me and get even further than i ever have been 4 real and let's get ready for the truth.

I updated the site

The blog looks edgier and cooler and i am so happy with it please look at how i updated it with a brand new picture and so forth plus check out my myspace at:http://myspace.com/thebelieversband which likes alot of work yet i am gonna improve it though

192 Hours until 21 in 2008 4 real

For me this is such a great time..........................i love to write songs>>>>>>>> and to me i need to since i am a singer/songwriter/so many other's thing's i already mentioned about........to me i have a some sadness yet i am tryin to believe and i need to read posivity instead of negative and to me life is about getting where you want to be,going where you want to go and just livin life as much as you can,but i real want just to be in her life and even when i turn 21 i still will want that and even after that and God only knows how much i have endured and been sad all this time and i wonder why He's allowed stuff to happen that causes me to worry and why don't it seem like there's no intervention at all and where is the hope and the peace i seeked Him for and why do i feel so numb so many time's i lose track.......i was watching Bruce Almighty last night just thinkin what a bad example to portray on how to treat God yet i began to realize the film was more fake then real and that the forgiveness i believe yet the way they portrayed God on vacation didn't seem realistic to me i mean does God really go on vacation and let somebody else rule over other's humm well back in the book of Job i read God let the fallen angel control somebody which i never real got but i do now and was the movie tryin portray the enemy i have no clue but what i also don't get is how the enemy could be an employee i am not tryin to uplift the enemy so don't get my story fucked up as i am evil or something when i am not.I only uplift God and i may those who i love and my friend's yet not the forces of evil never.


To me when i get 21 i am gonna write a blog about my day away from the computer and about going job searching again for i need one and i got a premenician if i did this one thing for God this would be mine it's as simple as that.Get a job,work,help my dad out around the house as much as i can before leaving,weightlifting and keep writing songs and within a couple year's i'd get to meet her and thing's would start going my favor.So i must obey the Lord as He commands and to get what i want i must obey Him as He asks when He asks so i must go job searching today and tomorrow and alway believe in the possible becoming reality for me and that girl i love so much more than my own existance for real.


I mean if God says something to you you better listen for He only says stuff to help you not hurt you and He knows exactly what you need and want and how to get it it's all in a weekly process and working for the Lord will get you what your heart desires

The Jray is back and better than ever

The past is gone but i am reborn the real me is here i am ready to show what i am and who i am for:

brie larson(who i love more than this life and everyone else included)
johanna(my sister well speakin of my friend she is a cool girl she is good and her friend's shouldn't take advantage of her so much if i was there i'd help her out)
hulk hogan(the greatest professional wrestler period and he made the sport what it is today,but we can't knock triple h,bret hart and those other icons and legends)
bob dylan(one man whose music has shaped my music taste since i was 8 years old,yet you gotta remember when it comes to music i am the one who edgy not knocking anybody else,but once i get out into the business i am gonna make it my own)
david bowie(icon,master of music with class a man with art,wearing dresses awesome and so forth yet he's multi-instrumental that blows my mind yet i am gonna just like that multi-instrumental)
garth brooks(wow this influence has dividends on how i songwrite for the emotion to the way he sings the songs,yet what influenced me the most is how he performs it's totally earth-shattering)
kinks(awesome band with awesome music and cool sound way awesome)
asia(awesome yet you got to remember their sound wow it just amazes me)
my mom most importantly has shaped my attitude towards like and so has my dad to never give up and the truth is my dad never gave up and that inspires me all the time
yet above all that is made real,not real or just out there and i am speaking of God the ultimate force and the most powerful force in the Universe sorry hulk hogan but God is the most powerful force in the universe in wrestling hulk hogan and triple h are the leaders of the sport but in life and eternity God is the man and the ultimate man He is and without Him we could say Amen,Lord,Judge,Hope,Faith and anything else nor could we even be alive at all for God gave us the first breath and for that we shall alway praise His glorious name and worship Him and the truth is Sunday is good to worship the truth is we could worship God daily and read about what He says daily and seek Him not just in books,Bibles or testimonies of His power and grace but also read about Him through what He says to us and through us and try to show other's "to heal nations is better than to curse them and destroy them all and to be honest is better than to lie or cause other's to cry let's all praise His glorious name even in our eyes and our hearts and minds and let's make it clear His name is the authority down here"


when it come down to all that is good God is above and what is not good will perish like those terrifying thing's in the world for fear has no place on earth nor either in heaven

i am the innocence you desire to have in your life

the truth is i am a good man,strong,powerful,talented and more good to everyone and tougher and more good looking than you'd realize plus i am gonna be in the movie business too and someday i'll get to where i want to be,be in that girl's life and be on tv and makin waves and fans too and to those nay sayer's one day you'll see what i become a success you know and believe in

The beginning of my dreams comin true

the past is dead

the future is mine to conquer and rule

be a Godly man

reach all my goals and not care what the world think's of it but my friend's

i hate fansites(it has nothing to do with the artists or the people who they are)

judgmental.critical.annoyances.low-life.hipocritical.below actin.non-ok.wrong.dead wrong.problem causing people.

2021:i almost 21 yet when i get to the age 21 i am gonna

be a successful musician

make alot of money

do alot and do what i want and get to where i want to be

get a little bit stronger than i already am right now

keep up with what i already do

write more songs and poems

add more friend's on my myspace and youtube account

meet brie someday and hopefully thing's will happen - please pray for me because she means more to me than life 4 real brother's and sister's

meet my idols(well influences idols is a name meaning influences yet religious folks have a big problem and since i ain't religious i am gonna post less religious blogs

more positive upppity ones like brie does she's so cool,yet i don't love her because of her coolness it's deep i can't explain it way deep i love the girl all around no one else i love as much as her

get in some movies

leave virginia

buy me some weight systems to use so i can stay at peak shape when doing concerts in the near future

plus be me all way

oh i almost forgot try every wine i can and when i find the best i am gonna drink it daily with each meal so i can stay at my best and also wine during meals is ok you can still workout but it will drain your energy some so drink moderately like the Europeans do - red wine is better than the smirnoff kind



when i get to post a video blog it's gonna be amazing



well until later:keep being strong,stay believing,keep up the faith and never give up on your dreams for if you do keep believing they'll all come true and when that day comes when your odler and movin forward you'll be so happy that you did and just like Madonna said all of those people who didn't believe in me this is the proof i am good enough - she is a good role model for young girl's yet brie is way better than madonna hands down

Taken care of fear and eliminated it - help 411

Fear can't hold who is diligent in what God expects which means no fear can hold him no fear can tame him or contradict him for the fear shall perish like the land of Florida.So forth with the woman who is for the truth and in God.



Those who hate me will receive the same right back,those who want to condemn me will be condemned and those who wish against me will face wrath.


To be honest God is on my side and no matter what comes up:


fear

weight's in the gym

fear to write a song,poem or a script

anxiety attacks

depression

criticism or judgmental people

i just shrug it right off and face the fears head on like i have my whole life:with faith,determination,courage and pushing forward and to be honest with a little pain it makes you stronger,tougher for you can by pass the pain

Knoweth of the evil ways of the world for i have none

The world will deceive you,yet i won't.
I will say to do wrong and make you feel like it's the only way but don't.
Listen to your heart and don't harden it.
Be clear minded and ignore negativity and listen to me.
Listen to that voice in your head.
Listen to the Lord and what He indeed says.
Be transformed into a better person as you need to be.
Although you can do what you want.
Be wise and don't be hatefilled at your friend's or those who want to be.
They are in need of you so pleas listen and whoever says they care please understand
For those who do are opened and good yet those who don't are either blind or confused
Mankind has thought they could hurt me,make me feel inferior yet it is no effect
for those who want suffering in me will indeed receive suffering and those wisheth not
will receive wealth,goodness,blessings and all the desires of the heart and soul
for when you become good you desire no evil nor do you want it in your life at all
And when you are pure you're life changes,you become better and you gain better friend's
and the world around you will be seen as it truly is,a circular environment with weather and temperature levels, water above,below us,land circled water and many different beings around us from human being's to animals to spirits and ghosts,yet fear is not good let it go and listen i am and you have no need or reason to fear of me and God is good.

The world is surrounded by a constant darkness yet the Sun is a light from God whose kingdom is within us all and we must let Him to make us and help us be ok and for us our souls are thristy and if you're thirsty ask for the Lord and He'll satisfy your thirst and you won't be any longer thirsty for the thirst will be filled with satisfaction and when you receive satisfaction you must praise him and thank Him for all He truly does for you.

Where Have I Been And The Evolving Human Race

Working on songs.............playing multiple instruments.....................working on my album yet i still have not been able to finish it,yet have no worries it will get done and put out soon enough........watching some movies.....weightlifting>playing games......video games.......somehow i just been real busy talking to friend's and sorry for and i sortive plus i workout and i am tryin to get the truth out.i got brand new songs in my head one which is wrote so much about the war in iraq and the cause and other songs which i feel strongly about putting out.dealing with my continous depression yet i am recovering i am out of bipolarity and i was so close been worse so i am blessed beyond what i thought i could be from growing in my spirituality in God and so forth and to me God is far more than just in religion......He is beyond just religions sense well He existed before it all.......Well here's a treat for those who read this blog the new blog to replace all my old blogs and since Brie rarely uses the Myspace one you can check this one since i don't use myspace anymore but to check my myspace page out here is how:



http://myspace.com/thebelieversband
http://myspace.com/ then go to music search on the site



well i got some work to do but this will do:


i'll add some more videos when i can my video add is not working sadly.